Are trials and harships really burdens or blessings?

I am sitting in the hospital AGAIN writing this post. Wendsday I received a phone all from my nephrologist right as a was finished being hooked up to dialysis. I had been trying to reach him for about a week but with the holidays it just didn't work out. I have been having wierd chest pain for a couple weeks it has been a bit better but was still there. I wanted to follow up with the nephrologist so I was thinking when he called me it was one less doctor appointment I had to go to. Well he had a different agenda. He was calling to inform me that the hospital had misread my CT scan from my previous hospital stay for chest pain. The radiologist had randomly chosen my scan to retread for quality purposes. He then realized they had missed a potentially life threatening blood clot. A pulmonary embolism. I was in shock. I had been walking around with this for weeks. I am now hospitalized while we get my blood thinned out enough that the clot won't grow.

Now there are two ways I could look at this situation. One completely start feeling bad for myself and say why me I have such bad luck or two I can use the trials I go through to grow and learn from my experience and realize someone is watching out for me and it was a blessing that my scan was re read.

I have been through a lot these last few weeks. My body maybe weak but my spirit is strong and will get me through these trials. I have to remember I have to have faith and realize. I will grow from this and also inspire others to go on to push through the hard times and EXPERIENCE life don't fumble through. Take things that come into your life as a learning experience a chance to grow and improve yourself. I know I have learned patience which I didn't have before. Also have leanrned about Pure love for people that i may have had problems with before. Everyone is human everyone has weaknesses I know I do. We shouldn't let those weaknesses keep us from experiencing that relationship. Realize we all make mistakes and just learn you can only change yourself. You are the one that can take charge of your life a become a better person.