Tomorrow is the big day!

Ok so I have totally been on the verge of puking all day because I am so nervous! I have pretty much gotten all the things done I needed to before tomorrow though which is good. I have never been so terrified in my life. Well maybe on the ride splash mountain... Happy singing woodland animals and BAM huge drop off. Stomach in your throat and butterflies in your tummy. Or you know that feeling you use to get when you snuck out of your room at night and then you got caught... Well thats how I feel. Tomorrow is the day I get the ticking time bomb of an aneurysm taken out of my body! But i will definitely be left with a battle wound. I googled it.. FYI don't google the surgery you are having....


CRYSTAL TOP TEN LIST OF SCAREDNESS

This is a list of all my fears about tomorrow.. ( I am doing this purely for therapeutic therapy)

1- going into the operating room and saying something stupid and they put me under
2-pooping my pants during surgery (six hours is a LONG time)
3-being under for six hours
4-waking up in the middle of surgery.. It is close to Halloween
5-having someones hands inside my body pushing around my organs
6-my kidney physically being taking out of my body (what is someone drops it on the floor....and what kind of ice are they putting it on to keep it fresh)
7-waking up from surgery
8-sneezing while i have this wound
9-the catheter I will have all week and the fact that I will have a pee bag on the side of the bed where visitors can see my pee!
10- And last but not least what if my belly button is deformed after the huge incision heals....

GREAT NEWS!

Just found out I am APPROVED for surgery on Friday! WOOT! I can't even believe it. with two days to spare! I am so relieved and happy to get this aneurysm fixed and move on with life with my two beautiful girls and amazing husband!

Longes week of my life.

Two days until my scheduled surgery and still no word on if my insurance is going to authorize it. Confusion? It has been a month since my Dr. submitted it.

With better news...Me and my amazing friend from Sweet Basil went to two potential venues on the charity event the Utah Food Bloggers with be putting on for me. I feel so blessed to have such support from my friends, family, and community. We have another appointment on thursday for another venue. So excited!

I also contacted the utah kidney foundation to get them involved as much as possible and I am officially signing up to be an organ donor! I believe in the gift of life and if I CHOOSE to be a donor! After all the health problems I have had and the chance of potentially needed a donated kidney. I would be proud to be able to do the same!


So the question is masquerade dinner ball? or a more boutique style event with snacks?

Nerves on End

My nerves feel raw as the time of surgery approaches. I have kept myself VERY busy that last couple of weeks. With project after project. Made some Halloween costumes, helped my grandma all week pack up and organize her home so they could move to California. (so sad) I have cleaned and organized closets, cabinets, food, and more. You would think I was nesting just before the birth of a baby or something. Yes I haven't had time to think about much more than projects. But tonight I am a little scared. I got word from my surgeon that my surgery was being rushed as fast as it could through the authorization process. The last thing is having Medicaids Dr. go through my info and authorize it. Hopefully that happens this week so I don't have to reschedule again. So we are just waiting and spending time together as a family as much as we can.

A little update

Just a quick update (this is crystal by the way) My surgery had to be rescheduled because medicaid has not approved it yet. It has been several weeks and no approval......Kinda frustrated since I almost had a nervous breakdown the week before the first surgery date was scheduled. Now it is set for the 30th of Sept. As we get closer and closer to that date I get more and more stressed that the surgery won't be "authorized" yet. And then we are in October and I paid a high spenddown with borrowed money for nothing. Can you tell I'm a little frustrated? I just don't get the long wait. Medicaid usually only take several days to give the go ahead with surgery. Don't they get that the longer we wait the more risk there is to my aneurysm rupturing and me bleeding to death..... Anyways now that I was able to vent. My sweet husband set up a facebook page for me. Its called Crystal's Kidney. Go on over and like the page! Until next time see ya!

Crystal's Kidney!!

Ok, so the Facebook page and the Zions Bank Charity account are now in full swing. If you would like to donate money you may do so at any Zions bank branch. Just go in and request to make a deposit into Crystal Hadlock's Donations account.
Thanks!
now go check out and 'like' the Facebook page!

The next step & Luck of the Irish....

The truth is I am lucky to be typing here living and breathing. I am lucky I still get to hold my kids, to love my husband and LIVE. I have decided my motto is Luck of the Irish. Yes my grandma is full irish her maiden name being Mahoney, and yes my other grandma is Irish with her maiden name being Flaherty. It is where I get my green eyes freckled skin and my fireery temper. I am a stubborn Irish girl. Hence the Luck of the Irish!

Its been a long time coming but I'm finally scheduled for my auto-transplant. Exciting yet terrifying! the surgery is scheduled for money Sept. 12. I have had another ultrasound to make sure my renal artery aneurysm hasn't grown. Luckily is hasn't changed which ment I could wait to figure out the whole insurance problem. No insurance will not take me for my pre-existing condition. So we applied for Medicaid and finally we were accepted. It is very expensive to pay the spend down every month but it will still be more cost effective than paying the hundreds of thousands of dollars it would cost without insurance. We are still waiting to hear back if medicaid will even cover it because it requires "approval" after my surgeon summits the request to do the surgery.

I feel very lucky to have happened to stumble upon my aneurysm before it could have potentially ruptured. Now I just have to get through my surgery. I am petrified for Monday. I have never been so emotional and scared in my life. I will be in the ICU for a couple of days after the surgery. So I won't be able to see my kiddos. SO SAD, because I will probably want to see them right when I wake up from the surgery. But I will be taken care of and push through this trial! Goodbye until after the surgery wish me luck!