Thursday, September 29, 2011

Tomorrow is the big day!



Ok so I have totally been on the verge of puking all day because I am so nervous! I have pretty much gotten all the things done I needed to before tomorrow though which is good. I have never been so terrified in my life. Well maybe on the ride splash mountain... Happy singing woodland animals and BAM huge drop off. Stomach in your throat and butterflies in your tummy. Or you know that feeling you use to get when you snuck out of your room at night and then you got caught... Well thats how I feel. Tomorrow is the day I get the ticking time bomb of an aneurysm taken out of my body! But i will definitely be left with a battle wound. I googled it.. FYI don't google the surgery you are having....


CRYSTAL TOP TEN LIST OF SCAREDNESS

This is a list of all my fears about tomorrow.. ( I am doing this purely for therapeutic therapy)

1- going into the operating room and saying something stupid and they put me under
2-pooping my pants during surgery (six hours is a LONG time)
3-being under for six hours
4-waking up in the middle of surgery.. It is close to Halloween
5-having someones hands inside my body pushing around my organs
6-my kidney physically being taking out of my body (what is someone drops it on the floor....and what kind of ice are they putting it on to keep it fresh)
7-waking up from surgery
8-sneezing while i have this wound
9-the catheter I will have all week and the fact that I will have a pee bag on the side of the bed where visitors can see my pee!
10- And last but not least what if my belly button is deformed after the huge incision heals....

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

GREAT NEWS!


Just found out I am APPROVED for surgery on Friday! WOOT! I can't even believe it. with two days to spare! I am so relieved and happy to get this aneurysm fixed and move on with life with my two beautiful girls and amazing husband!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Longes week of my life.


Two days until my scheduled surgery and still no word on if my insurance is going to authorize it. Confusion? It has been a month since my Dr. submitted it.

With better news...Me and my amazing friend from Sweet Basil went to two potential venues on the charity event the Utah Food Bloggers with be putting on for me. I feel so blessed to have such support from my friends, family, and community. We have another appointment on thursday for another venue. So excited!

I also contacted the utah kidney foundation to get them involved as much as possible and I am officially signing up to be an organ donor! I believe in the gift of life and if I CHOOSE to be a donor! After all the health problems I have had and the chance of potentially needed a donated kidney. I would be proud to be able to do the same!


So the question is masquerade dinner ball? or a more boutique style event with snacks?

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Nerves on End


My nerves feel raw as the time of surgery approaches. I have kept myself VERY busy that last couple of weeks. With project after project. Made some Halloween costumes, helped my grandma all week pack up and organize her home so they could move to California. (so sad) I have cleaned and organized closets, cabinets, food, and more. You would think I was nesting just before the birth of a baby or something. Yes I haven't had time to think about much more than projects. But tonight I am a little scared. I got word from my surgeon that my surgery was being rushed as fast as it could through the authorization process. The last thing is having Medicaids Dr. go through my info and authorize it. Hopefully that happens this week so I don't have to reschedule again. So we are just waiting and spending time together as a family as much as we can.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

A little update

Just a quick update (this is crystal by the way) My surgery had to be rescheduled because medicaid has not approved it yet. It has been several weeks and no approval......Kinda frustrated since I almost had a nervous breakdown the week before the first surgery date was scheduled. Now it is set for the 30th of Sept. As we get closer and closer to that date I get more and more stressed that the surgery won't be "authorized" yet. And then we are in October and I paid a high spenddown with borrowed money for nothing. Can you tell I'm a little frustrated? I just don't get the long wait. Medicaid usually only take several days to give the go ahead with surgery. Don't they get that the longer we wait the more risk there is to my aneurysm rupturing and me bleeding to death..... Anyways now that I was able to vent. My sweet husband set up a facebook page for me. Its called Crystal's Kidney. Go on over and like the page! Until next time see ya!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Crystal's Kidney!!

Ok, so the Facebook page and the Zions Bank Charity account are now in full swing. If you would like to donate money you may do so at any Zions bank branch. Just go in and request to make a deposit into Crystal Hadlock's Donations account.
Thanks!
now go check out and 'like' the Facebook page!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

The next step & Luck of the Irish....



The truth is I am lucky to be typing here living and breathing. I am lucky I still get to hold my kids, to love my husband and LIVE. I have decided my motto is Luck of the Irish. Yes my grandma is full irish her maiden name being Mahoney, and yes my other grandma is Irish with her maiden name being Flaherty. It is where I get my green eyes freckled skin and my fireery temper. I am a stubborn Irish girl. Hence the Luck of the Irish!

Its been a long time coming but I'm finally scheduled for my auto-transplant. Exciting yet terrifying! the surgery is scheduled for money Sept. 12. I have had another ultrasound to make sure my renal artery aneurysm hasn't grown. Luckily is hasn't changed which ment I could wait to figure out the whole insurance problem. No insurance will not take me for my pre-existing condition. So we applied for Medicaid and finally we were accepted. It is very expensive to pay the spend down every month but it will still be more cost effective than paying the hundreds of thousands of dollars it would cost without insurance. We are still waiting to hear back if medicaid will even cover it because it requires "approval" after my surgeon summits the request to do the surgery.

I feel very lucky to have happened to stumble upon my aneurysm before it could have potentially ruptured. Now I just have to get through my surgery. I am petrified for Monday. I have never been so emotional and scared in my life. I will be in the ICU for a couple of days after the surgery. So I won't be able to see my kiddos. SO SAD, because I will probably want to see them right when I wake up from the surgery. But I will be taken care of and push through this trial! Goodbye until after the surgery wish me luck!

Friday, June 17, 2011

The misadventures of the Hadlocks!


Tonight was such a fun family night out and really helped me to chill out and forget about things for a while! Chris's awesome boss got his employees tickets to the PG carnival. The girls had so much fun riding rides together it just melted my heart to see them have so much fun together! I just love them so much and just LOVE seeing them grow up and experience thing TOGETHER.
Chris went back to work after so he would have a silent place to study for his Biology test tomorrow and I cam home to put the kiddos to bed and start the two pork roasts for my mom-in-laws retirement/birthday party. It was quite interesting making the roast. I have this issue with handling meat. I am on the verge of becoming a vegetarian because I HATE DISLIKE DESPISE touching raw meat and picturing this cute little animal! I have come along way and can barely touch chicken without cringing and making meat loaf doesn't make me dry heave anymore. But tonight was rough.....Two HUGE pork roasts.....And two somewhat easy directions. 1-Rub the roast with salt. 2- rub with roast with liquid smoke...WHAT! rub the roast!!!! I held my breath and barely made it! I about lost it when i touched the bone(which I didn't know was still there!!) My stomach feels a little week but hopefully tomorrow our house will be filled with a yummy aroma and I will get the guts to try the sweet little pigs I just put in the crock pot.
On another note. My surgeons office called today and set up another ultra sound to check and see if my aneurysm has grown at all. This will give me a HUGE feeling of relief. Its been about nine months since the last and everyday I just worry. I know I shouldn't and I really try not to but thats kinda hard to do all the time. So Tuesday is the day and we will see! Wish me luck!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Amazing people at IHC




Yesterday I had an appointment with my surgeon to ask our last question before I schedule my surgery. It confirmed how much I LOVE my surgeon. She is just amazing! We decided to walk over to the hospital where I will be having the surgery done to meet some people and figure out all the financial stuff. We talked to several people that were all some what confused on IHC "charitable" department. Which doesn't really exist I guess but IHC does do charitable surgeries and things. Anyways we ended up in the solid transplant center office. Once again they were somewhat confused on why I was there since I didn't need a donor. We had a name though and luckily this man was kind enough to speak with us. He then brought out the head transplant financial aid person. And she was amazing! We told them my situation and gave me some paperwork to fill out and bring back. A HUGE weight was lifted off my shoulders as I walked away. I know everything will work out. I don't know exactly how; but I just have a lot of peace.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Dr. Time

Had quite the scare yesterday. Starting having sharp pain where my kidney is. Pretty much thought my aneurysm was rupturing. Went and checked my blood pressure and it was elevated but not super high. Still way scary day for me. Luckily the pain dyed down after several hours. Maybe indigestion? lol! I am going to meet with my surgeon again to finalize any questions I have for her before I schedule my surgery. I also have an appointment with another vascular doctor and surgeon next week for two more opinions. Going to be a long next couple of weeks. I have been trying so hard not to really focus on the scariness of my aneurysm. Its hard not to think about it though. Its hard to forget you have a ticking time bomb that could go off any minute. Today I took the girls to the water park to try to distract me. It worked rather well until June almost drowned. I went straight to Target and bought her some floaties. Freaked me out! Well until next time!

Monday, June 13, 2011

This is so interesting

This article is so interesting and it shows how far medicine has come. I am going to take to my surgeon about this I believe this is not going to be an options since I need blood flow to work still through my vessel. Check out this ARTICLE!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

The beginning of a long journey...

My name is Crystal. I am 27 years old and a mom to two beautiful girls and a wife to an amazing husband. I am an artist and love to express myself through photography. I have a love for life and love living it.

In August of 2010 my life was turned upside down. My mom, my kids and I were in a car accident. Ever since the accident i had been struggling with excruciating pain in my lower back, hip, and down my right leg. It was unbearable. I tried everything from chiropractic care, physical therapy, and cortisone shots. Little did I know all the pain I was having was a blessing in disguise.

My doctor ordered an MRI of my lower back because of all the pain nI was in and discovered by mistake, what looked like an aneurysm. I was told very little about what an aneurysm was and was assured it was probably a misreading and no matter what, not to look it up on the internet. Of course i looked it up, and realized if what they had seen was indeed an aneurysm, my life would become very different.

Next on my list was a CT scan. I nervously make it through another test and awaited another phone call from the doctor. The day came and sure enough they had not misread my MRI. I did have an aneurysm. I had the most rare type of aneurysm. (.01% chance of every getting this type of aneurysm) A renal artery aneurysm; and to top it off, it was on a vessel to the only kidney I was born with. This created a very unique and difficult problem.

There are several options I have to choose from. First is watch and wait; and monitor. To me this is a gamble with my life. At any moment no matter if I am exercising or sitting on the couch relaxing, my aneurysm could rupture and I would have 5-30 minutes to get to the hospital before I would internally bleed to death. If I was lucky and made it to the hospital I would have my only kidney removed and be put on dialysis and a kidney transplant waiting list. I fear everyday that this may happen while im alone or with my kids.

The next option we were told was to do embolization. I later found out this was not an option because my solitary kidney and the surgery would risk me loosing part of my kidney tissue and I would end up needing a kidney transplant down the road. Once again I want to preserve my life and lice until Im old and grey. I want to be there for my family and my children. And live life to the fullest. This was not the right option.

My last option is an auto transplant. This is where the surgeon wil take my kidney out, remove the aneurysm, and transplant my kidney back into my body. More evasive, more recovery, more scars... yet this option gives me the best long-term quality of life. This was the right decision.

Sounds like this story has a happy ending. But there is a twist...Last year my husband was laid off from his job. Good insurance, retirement, and a steady reliable income. My husband found a job relatively fast. Such a blessing; but his new job didn't have any benefits and it was half the income that we made before. We have made it work. Time are tough but we had each other and that's really all that matters. We are lucky because our kids have health coverage and my husband and I have preventative coverage. Now to a healthy family this would be perfect; but to a rare out of the ordinary family this does not cut it. My bills will estimate around 170,000.00. I have looked into buying individual insurance; but don't qualify because of my pre-exiting condition. I have looked into government help but we have been responsible and have to many assits. Even if we were to sell everything it still would not cover the cost. That leaves one option,save and hope for help. I firmly believe things happen for a reason. Either to teach use or others and to grow as a person. Life is about learning and growing and this is definitely once of those times I have to remember this.